We rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster 

than we should that we go bankrupt by the age of thirty 

and have less to offer each time we start with someone new. 

But to feel nothing so as not to feel anything 

- what a waste!

-cmbyn

you think 

i don't care

maybe that's true

i don't even know 

anymore

what matters

but i guess

before it's too late

i should call 

i care for you

both.

there is no fun

no laughs

just boredom 

i miss the time 

we sat at the street

ate pizza and talked

the sun

the life

the love

running on concrete

electricity

i finally can breathe

i think i'm ready for

Ge smak daun, gyon op nodotaim

Ste yuj 

i want to explain 

but what is the point

in making everyone sad

it's all up to you

how you act in the world

so why make everything 

even worse

when you can make it

even better

i want to explain

it's all in my head

but i don't want to

make everyone sad

do you understand?

sorry for being sick

sorry for not texting back 

sorry for not showing up 

sorry for being a horrible friend 

sorry for being a horrible best friend 

sorry for being annoying

sorry for disappointing you

sorry for making you angry

sorry for making you sad

sorry for being a horrible daughter

sorry for being a horrible sister

sorry for bringing negativity into your life

sorry for asking for the homework

sorry for failing all the time 

sorry for not being there for you

I can not put in words how sorry I am.

Fear spreads, but luckily love does as well.

Takk for alt.

The second you start looking for hate...

You find it.

And when you find hate

you start hating.

so many things to do

so many books to read

so many songs to listen to

so many shows to watch 

so many movies to watch 

so many people to meet 

so many places to see 

so many things we still don't know

so many things we want to say

but so much homework.

Hardworking, busy bees are always productive. 

Connected to joyful, colourful flowers, 

taking their work very serious.

One bee has never 

to explain itself to the queen 

why the work isn't done.

but..

i'm scared of bees!

Everything is A-okay 

When you have

Perfect grades.

No one will ask 

Because when you have 

Perfect grades

...

Everything 

is 

A-okay.

There will always be a reason to go back.

It takes courage to stay free.

see david play outside

see david appear inside

what's going on david?

what's going on?

you are a horrible person.

For what you did

you don't deserve this 

Love is so wonderful isn't it?

You don't know it.

You never will.

you are a horrible person.

Nobody knows

but you are.

it's nice to have some time

just sit in silence 

and notice

the little things 

the nature

the birds singing 

it's nice to have some time

pure silence 

I did not get to be mad

And it's not fair

It's not fair

It's not fair

I did not get to yell

I got to sit in silent tears 

14.03.13

my goal is not to show people that I play perfectly but that I'm strong enough and that I don't care about what they think.

I'm not scared anymore.

I'm myself and I like myself the way I am.

I'm not weak. I'm strong.

I tore the note.

Huh.

Man, that's crap.

You always have a choice.

You can either roll over and die,

Or you can keep fightin'

No matter what. 

She speaks to me fondly 

of passions and talents, 

guitars and stars, 

then stops short and 

apologises for speaking at all.

All because somewhere in her life, 

someone she loved broke her heart by ignoring her beautiful words 

and telling her to 

shut up, 

keep it down, 

nobody cares.

People aren't born sad.

We make them that way.

-Nikita Gill 

You don't have to be ruled by fate. You can choose freedom.

Please,

My whole life is a lie.

I just need to know

Who am I?

↗

Think I was lost?

Think I am lost?

You're right.

My whole life is a lie.

Always hiding behind that monster

But

There is no monster

It's so easy to pretend it's fine.

So easy.

Haha.

Poor thing.

Are you sad?

I'm sorry.

Smile more.

The sun is shining, so don't be sad.

Everything is better, when the sun is shining.

Haha.

It's so easy to pretend it's fine.

So much hate in this world.

But you can't do anything about it.

Because you are small.

You don't want to hurt people.

You are not confident.

You hate yourself.

So you keep it all in.

All the things you want to say.

People ask "What is wrong with you?"

But you can't answer.

Because they wouldn't understand.

And maybe there is nothing wrong with me.

But something is wrong with them.

You have to know

Where you are,

To get the balance.

You have to know,

Who you are,

To not lose it.

I stay awake until 3 am.

New ideas come 

into my mind

More and more.

Every night.

And at one point I explode

And all the ideas, 

thoughts and feelings

Fly through the air

And they dissolve 

Until they're gone

Leaving a big deep

Emptiness behind.

I've been standing at the edge of the water
Long as I can remember, never really knowing why
I wish I could be the perfect daughter
But I come back to the water, no matter how hard I try

-

I can lead with pride, I can make us strong
I'll be satisfied if I play along
But the voice inside sings a different song
What is wrong with me?

-

One day I'll know, if I go there's just no telling how far I'll go

--

How far I'll go

Alessia Cara

Why can I not live my life?

Why do I care about what others think?

Why am I not myself? 

Why am I so bored?

Why do I cry every thursday?

Why am I not doing what I love?

Why do I smile?

Because I'm not myself.

Because I cry every thursday.

Because I care about what others think.

Because I am not doing what I love.

Because I can not live my life.

Because I am so bored.

Because I smile.

Astronaut or a rock star

that's what I want to be

I'll may be a fireman

saving cats from trees

mama says I could make it 

I just have to work hard

finish all of your homework

and then you will go far

will go far

yeah

-kero kero bonito

Pushed away 

All the people 

I love

Because I thought

That it was right

But I was wrong

Now

Everyone is gone

I often feel like it's wrong to be myself.

I'm sorry that I can't be like anybody else.

I'm tired of running away

Always doing what is right

How can I live 

When I don't know

How to breathe

Escape from the city 

And follow the sun.

You used to laugh everyday

Everything was so easy

But then you lost a friend

And everything falls apart

And slowly

You're losing everyone

Who you love

Because you're missing your friend

Everyday. 

Everything is becoming wrong

You can't be yourself anymore

I'm sorry.

Every night I dream 

That I'm brave enough 

To do what I love the most

But then there is this bee again

Flying around me 

Trying to push me away

From what I love the most

And it's following me in real life

Everyday it's the same

I see the bee

And run away

The worst battle is between what you know and what you feel.

Destroy the fear in you before the fear destroys the life before you.

You're greater than the pain that's eating you inside.

How can I be so lost,

in a place I know so well?

How can I be so lonely,

surrounded by so many?

Are we supposed to act like everything is okay even if it's not?

There is no space for

this big darkness 

that wants to get out.

There will be peace when you are done.

Lay your weary head to rest.

Don't you cry no more.

"I'll do this my way. Don't matter if I break."

Demons are real,

and monsters are too.

They live inside us,

playing a game.

And sometimes,

they win.

"I am endlessly creating myself"

"I often said "sorry" when I should've said "goodbye""

"I will be stronger than my sadness"

"all of me was lost in you"

"If you are angry, be silent"

"Just take away the pain."

"Cute as heaven, psycho as hell."

"Life becomes so much better when you decide not to care and just live for the moment and not let the drama bring you down."

"Wear black and be gold."

"Start each day with a grateful heart."

-Die schlimmsten Momente sind die, in denen man eigentlich glücklich sein müsste, aber man nur diese unendliche Leere fühlt.-

-Die Zeit zum nachdenken bringt mich um.-

-Sometimes I miss you and it hurts me a little bit...-

-I think one of my favorite feelings is laughing with someone and realizing half way through how much you enjoy them and their existence.-

-Dear mom, thanks for this beautiful life and forgive me if I don't love it enough.-

-When life is sweet, say thank you and celebrate.
And when life is bitter, say thank you and grow.-

-You can't get much done in life it you only work on days when you feel good.-

You know those days when you try to do the thing and you just kinda..

"Um glücklich zu sein, müssen wir nur das aufgeben, was uns unglücklich macht."

"No matter what you do, no matter how many times you screw up and think to yourself "there's no point to carry on", no matter how many people tell you that you can't do it - keep going. Don't quit. Don't quit, because a month from now you will be that much closer to your goal that you are now. Yesterday you said tomorrow. Make today count."